well this is crap i'm so tired of people's petty remarks to ruin my happiness and have it work. got a call today telling me my boyfriend's cheating one my with some nasty little skank that's done almost every guy at my school. she's braggin about it saying she's never had the cahnce to cheat on one of my boyfriends. i'm sorry but if u can help a guy that you know has a gf cheat on her than i have no respect for you and u are on my shit list. i swear to god if i see that lil tramp she will get the shit beat out of her becasue i did nothing to her to deserve this and even if i do find out brad cheated on me she'll still pay becuase she coulda said no. so i'm falling apart right now and my shoulder dislocated itself a lil while ago and i have to leave here at 10 am so i'm just freakin out right now and idk what to do. the brad that i saw the other day that came and woke me up just to see me and tell me he loved me does not seem like the one that would just turn around the next day pretty much and cheat on me. if my typing sux i'm sorry i took two very strong painkillers for my damn shoulder and i think they're kickin in so yah idk what the hell to do i'm so lost and confused and nothing's making sense, i'll just try to get some sleep and make sense of everything tomorrow. and if ur wondering why i haven't talked to brad it's cuz i can't get ahold of him

it's hard to know you love someone and know they love you too but u just don't know how much they love you.....


who's gonna save me now?
who's gonna pull me back from my slow hell?
back from my insanity that you've caused,that you've ended ?
you seem like ur drifting away like a voice inside my head.
are you gonna help me like you promised?
or are you gonna run away?
i wish you were here holding my tenderly
talkin to me oh so softly
now i don't know where to go
what to do
cuz baby i'm nothing without u